Stress??!!!

I have an OB appointment for my follow up check-up. After the medical secretary get my personal information, she has to check my blood pressure, and after three attempt she ask me if I feel dizzy and feel something not normal because I have a very low BP.I replied quickly that, I’m feeling good, and I’m fine. Then she checked again, and confirmed, that result doesn’t change and my BP is 70/40. Yes, that low.

I proceed to my doctor and she discuss to me the results of may laboratory exams and give me some prescriptions. Because of my low BP, she advise me to eat more and have enough good sleep. She also added to free myself from stress.

And because I’m an obedient patient, I took my doctor’s advice right away. Eat more foods and free from stress. And I'll have a good sleep later. :)

Conquered my fears!

Survived

It's OKEY...

Aches and Pains

Forgetful Dreams

I had a dream recently, and I remember it so clearly, every single details from places and whom I'm with. I shared it to my friend that he is in my dreams. Then, he asked me, how many GB your brain memory has? Because, he said when he had a dream he always forget it all when he wakes up.

I really don't know if he people have different memory brain capacity, which I do believe we all have  the same. Though, there are people whom they called have a photographic memory. Not so often I remember my dreams, I have only few. Sometimes I just remember it partly. But most, I forget it all too when I woke up, and no matter how I tried to remember it, I really can't. Though, I only want to remember those happy dreams I know I have, those bad one... better not too :)

Hello Ms. Beautiful

Early today, I received e-mail form someone, addressing me with... Hello Ms. Beautiful, I not being conceited here but it really makes my day. ( ang arte ko!!! hahaha). I know very well, that someone just want to add humor to the message. But it feels good receiving message containing good words lightens up the day.

Since, being beautiful was given to me today, I'll stand to it now :), besides, Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. And me personally I always have my own ways being beautiful in and out... Thank you.

Simple Treat from HiM

When he got his new job last February, he promised me that he is going to treat me on his first salary. I wink, :), because treating me to eat outside in his own expenses is once in a blue moon to happened. Mostly, it was shared expenses. He prefer to cooked food at home rather than eating outside. His reasons are, less expenses and we can have quality time. Which I agree, no hustle, no long walking to do. hehehe.

Last Saturday, since he promised, he has to do it :), but, I think the odds really favored him. He had unexpected overtime at work and I had to go to Manila to buy some school stuff for my niece. We both have a long day already so instead of going to a fine dine-in restaurant as we planned. We just go to a nearby McDonald. Have a brewed coffee, burger and fries. 

Simple treat, simple things yet feeling so special.

Unwanted Text

Early in the morning today, I received unwanted text from unknown number. Words hurts me, words judges me... though at the end of the messages it says, he/she is just concern with me that no need to be recognized. I replied, letting them know that I don't mind and I don't care about the messages sent to me.

Only God can judges me. In Bible, He will brings the truth and light whatever was hidden in darkness and will disclose the secret intentions of the hearts. I surrender everything to Him. For I know, no one can do harm in me because He is with me.

Little things

Little things takes time to grow,
but worth investing in.

For Jesus said:
Let children come to me,
and don't stop them,
for the kingdom of God
belongs to such as these.

Welcoming month of March
with good vibes :)

Synch

"When minds and hearts are not in synch,

 there is bound to be misunderstanding"

Communication is really important. And, we communicate at different levels, so too, we have different meanings, and interpretations. What ever medium we're using communicating to other people, it's good that both involve synch in their minds and hearts what there talking into, and their differences. If not, surely they will not understand each other no matter how they talked.

Signs

Most of us when we're confused, need to decide, caught between two points. We asked for some signs form above. These make us comfortable and assures us that we're doing the right thing and we're in the right track. We're able to adjust easily and reorient ourselves. Like signs of the roads, it help us go through unfamiliar places.

People who had travel familiar roads do not need signs anymore. They can say, I can pass it through even blindfolded. The terrain of life maybe rough most the time, but our it is our faith will lead us to surpass all things. Our own personal experiences will be our best guide.

We should know Jesus more that He came from above. For He is the way, the truth and the life. If we abstained and hardheaded this make us separate from Him, we do not need sign, we need to change, change of heart and follow Jesus path.

Happy Monday :)

I choose to Forgive

If someone hurts you so deeply.
"Sorry" can't erase the pain.
Second chance is heavy to give
For forgiveness is not that easy

I need much strength to accept things.
I need clear mind to reflect over.
I need courage to let go of my fears.
I need to be brave to stand over.

I choose to forgive.
I don't want to bear mud inside of me.
I choose to forgive.
Because I want to be happy.

Pride Collides

"When God and human pride collides,

in the hearts and minds of the people,

God usually takes a beating"

Keeping myself

As we go though life, lot of changes happened. And it's nice of we change for good. We dream, we become successful, we acquire more knowledge, and sometime fame.  How do we manage this kind of changes in our lives. Does it affect us?. or this changes, changes us also.

I can say I was so blessed to finished my studies, in spite of every hurdle I've been through. More blessed to be part of the Company that give me more opportunities, trusted me, and believe in me that I can do good and be a better associates.

From a girl form the province to the life I have today, huge transformation really happened to my life. With my status and lifestyle. I would admit that sometimes it's not easy to control myself not be drown into. But at the end of the day, God always reminds me how Jesus keep himself as He go through fame because of the miracles He had made.

It's good to learned how to handle and keep myself to the over-changing experience I have and I may encountered by holding on to what I have inside. Leaving simple and keeping my feet on the ground will always give me happiness and inner peace.

Crossing Over

Crossing over in any kind is a very dangerous act. We are risking the things that we are familiar and give us a comfort zone. And as we go through, in the mid of our journey, the current of temptations, fear and loosing confidence make us struggle to go further.

In times like this, we need to focus and find our center to balance things.  Sometimes we need to allow to things to happened, and don't need resist for you will lose to much energy that is more useful in later part. Stopping at a moment and let some things pass is not an act of  lack of bravery but proper management of self resources within the right time at the right place.

Most simple are not easy

Not all simple things can be explained and define easily, and most of the times, those things we think simplest form are most often hard to understand. Needs logic to determine and with the process that doesn't  go with the natural flow. Cannot be quantified, that make us confused and surprise.

Some stories are like this, even in life too. Sometimes, we say... it's too simple and easy, yet when we are there already we find difficulties to execute things. But indeed, this give us challenge and invite us to reflect, analyze further, process it in our mind until we come up to the best thing to do and it give us great learning.

Like some God's teaching is the bible. Most we don't understand it that easy but through time we discovered it with patience and it's all worth it.

Sour grapes behind Me

I can taste and smell "sour grapes" behind my back :)
Yes, I`m not an Engineer... who's claiming, anyway :D

I post this on my FB wall, but I don' want to be mean to anyone, just saying and perhaps this person having sour grape behind my back, will think twice before saying again anything against me or whatsoever. Knowing we're not close nor friends either.

Agree with me, it`s quite irritating when you know someone bashes you behind, especially on things you haven't done. If that`s because of  their insecurities, well, I have nothing to do with it. I don't claim to be good or nice at all, I have my insecurities too, but I never drag anyone down because of it. If I did, I`ll say "shame on you Geerlai!"

I quote

"Never let a man to choose... let him decide for his own.
If you can`t bare it, you can choose your own... 
walkout! and never looked back..."

Annoying EX!!!

What you will do and feel, if you found out that your partner is having a fishy communication with his/her EX?

Payts was sleep because he was drunk when I arrived to their house, and his phone still on his hand. I got the phone out of his and and browse, which not new to both of us, we`re open to it. But this time I read something very wrong, unnamed number and the text message is not usual and casual conversation, and as I checked the number... OMG! it was his EX cellphone number. Oouucchhh! and I really feel threaten.

It takes a minute before I was able to wake him up, he was kind of dizzy when he saw me. I don`t say a word to brought out what I read, because I don`t want to start a fight and both of us may misinterpret both sides. Instead, I asked him what he feels and if he had ate already.

I`m not a very jealous person, unless I had a point and reason to be jealous.  Yes! I was upset with the situation, but more upset to the woman involved. I know her by what common friends say, I meet her twice, she is older than me and Payts. I know how close she is to Payts` family. Reason for me to try hard to understand why she still communicating to them most often.  Although, I could really feel and sense it how she still loves Payts and wants to win him back.

During early months of our relationship, it`s been already an issue, because she texted and called Payts from time to time, most annoying is when it happened when we`re together on our date. I and Payts talked about it already, we both agreed and he do promise he will not entertain her text and calls anymore. Payts change his mobile  number, but sad to say she was able to get it, maybe from friends or other family member.  And I know Payts, really try to ignore her. But since she`s been closed to the family, Payts can`t control it if she and other family member has constant communication. She was able to got invited to visit to their house or attend occasions. Since I`m the newbie to the family circle, I feel most awkward, I don`t want that each of them need to weigh things between me and her, so most of the time, I give way.

And here we are again, how it happened?... I don`t know and I don`t want to know either. All I want is to STOP this fishy thing... if there is any thing going on. I won`t give up what I and Payts have now, we`ve been through a lot to give up that easy. As long as I know and I feel that he loves me I`ll fight for it. I will let that woman understand, that relationship is for two people only, unless she don`t know how to count. If she wants to win him back, she can wait, but as long as Payts still with me, she must know where to put herself.