I quote

"Never let a man to choose... let him decide for his own.
If you can`t bare it, you can choose your own... 
walkout! and never looked back..."

Annoying EX!!!

What you will do and feel, if you found out that your partner is having a fishy communication with his/her EX?

Payts was sleep because he was drunk when I arrived to their house, and his phone still on his hand. I got the phone out of his and and browse, which not new to both of us, we`re open to it. But this time I read something very wrong, unnamed number and the text message is not usual and casual conversation, and as I checked the number... OMG! it was his EX cellphone number. Oouucchhh! and I really feel threaten.

It takes a minute before I was able to wake him up, he was kind of dizzy when he saw me. I don`t say a word to brought out what I read, because I don`t want to start a fight and both of us may misinterpret both sides. Instead, I asked him what he feels and if he had ate already.

I`m not a very jealous person, unless I had a point and reason to be jealous.  Yes! I was upset with the situation, but more upset to the woman involved. I know her by what common friends say, I meet her twice, she is older than me and Payts. I know how close she is to Payts` family. Reason for me to try hard to understand why she still communicating to them most often.  Although, I could really feel and sense it how she still loves Payts and wants to win him back.

During early months of our relationship, it`s been already an issue, because she texted and called Payts from time to time, most annoying is when it happened when we`re together on our date. I and Payts talked about it already, we both agreed and he do promise he will not entertain her text and calls anymore. Payts change his mobile  number, but sad to say she was able to get it, maybe from friends or other family member.  And I know Payts, really try to ignore her. But since she`s been closed to the family, Payts can`t control it if she and other family member has constant communication. She was able to got invited to visit to their house or attend occasions. Since I`m the newbie to the family circle, I feel most awkward, I don`t want that each of them need to weigh things between me and her, so most of the time, I give way.

And here we are again, how it happened?... I don`t know and I don`t want to know either. All I want is to STOP this fishy thing... if there is any thing going on. I won`t give up what I and Payts have now, we`ve been through a lot to give up that easy. As long as I know and I feel that he loves me I`ll fight for it. I will let that woman understand, that relationship is for two people only, unless she don`t know how to count. If she wants to win him back, she can wait, but as long as Payts still with me, she must know where to put herself. 

Joining the Rebellion

Hunger games: Catching fire day!!! I watched the first movie last year with my brother, and I did really wait for this 2nd movie on the big screen this year. Although I already finished reading the three books, it doesn`t spoiled the thrill.

Added to my excitement is, I`m gonna watch it with HiM, yes!... for the 1st time we`re going to watch movie together.  This is our movie date for being almost two years as honeybees.  But before it happened, lots of talks to convince HiM and make him promise, we`re going  together. Odds really do in my favor :)

Well, I can say, the movie is great, and HiM did like it too.  I really love the character of Katness. Her beauty and braveness.  I was fascinated with their fire dress costume during the parade.  And of course, the very lovely wedding gown, firing and turn to a black dress like a mockingjay. Wow!

The breathtaking war game inside the arena. Who`s the treat and allies?  The unexpected twist happened. The game is not a game, it was planned before it was stared and only Katness didn`t know. Rebellion already spark and she is the mockingjay, the inspiration of hope to everyone.

Other year to wait for the next but I know I`m not alone.

I said...

Jealousy is not so often at vocabulary...
So do not assumed too much about it...

I`m not hypocrite for "Hi" and "Hello"
or to be friends... knowing and seeing someone
still getting hurt. Maybe in due time,

It would be good to STOP for a moment
Than pushing things, thinking to fixed it all.
Then soon you`ll realized you haven`t moved on
but just get used to it.

We can lie to the whole world but not to ourselves!
At one point or another, you closed your eyes with in
mind that you still love him :((

I`m an athlete

I`m an athlete... I know well that,
In every race I need to sprint with all my breath
In curves I have to inclined to take advantage.
In every hurdle I have to jump with accuracy.
And so as life, with challenge and burdens
But there is always a finish line, wherein you can
submit and glorify for you have done best
whatever would be the prize.

Volunteer

Today I take as volunteer in packing of relief goods at one of the DSWD  drop off center. Together with my two college friend, Eman and Cliford. Although, I was already feed by news regarding how much all people willing to help, still, it was over whelming to see those good hearts visible in actual actions.

This is my first time to be a volunteer, I really enjoy counting the sacks of goods being loaded by volunteer individuals and police officers at the container van and be ready to ship and distributed to most affected areas  of typhoon Yolanda. In spite of being under the sun, everyone is having fun, like everybody knows each.

We also help in repacking of goods, where most girls and kids are assigned. True enough, to do a task two is better than one, how much more if 10 times. It was really great feeling inside that I as able to reach out, extend my hand to the victims of typhoon. I really wish and pray that somehow through that they will feel little comfort on what they are going through and give them strength not to give up and keep their faith that they can surpass all this.

They day is a bit tiring. Body pain my last for two or more, but the feeling of being fulfilled is worth more than enough. This is the first, but not the last.

Thank you Eman and Cliford. I know you both also had a great day.